Floating

 

Yes, I have been overwhelmed. I am in the midst of a what-do-you-call-it where I can see my life going in any number of directions. It is a temporary lapse in identity. It feels like I am floating out of my own control sometimes.

 

This morning during devotions, we read Romans 9. Paul refers to God as a potter and says, “What right does the clay have to say to the potter, ‘why have you made me like this?'”.

I so want to control my own destiny.

 

I am inspired by the anonymous quote, “If you don’t write your own story, someone else is going to write it for you.”

When I hear so many different voices, I need to go with my gut, to follow my own desires. No one else is going to do that for me. That responsibility lies with me, if that’s what I want.

 

On the other hand, there’s Christianity, which says,

“What you plan doesn’t matter, it’s what God plans that endures. Serve God and not your own desires and wishes. God is in control of the person you are going to become. You can either submit to His will, or follow your own selfish desires. God’s will is for good, but your will is for evil.”

It’s hard to hear sometimes, but as a Christian I need to trust God because ultimately I need him for life and peace in eternity.